Tuesday, December 13, 2005
sumtimes i wonder if it's a curse to b the smartest in the family. every1 luks upon me with all their expectations dat
oh i'm the 1st one in my extended family to get into the university,
oh i have no problems with my studies, or
oh i'm the only wan who noes how to do extraordinary things lyk burning a cd.
hello? i wasnt born with a program in my brain dat tells me how to use the computer, how to d/l things, how to burn cds, u noe? i also din noe how to do all dat at the beginning wad. but wad did i do? i din act pathetic n helpless. i tried n explored myself. is it VERY difficult? sheesh.. it really gets on my nerves sumtimes. n my sis.. i dunno wad to say abt her. sumtimes i just cant help but wonder y she doesnt noe how to do simple things, n yet
doesnt bother to try to learn them herself.
yes, my sis is not as clever but she's v hardworking. dat's wad lyk every1 lyks to say. i dun deny dat. so wad if i'm smarter but lazy? i think it's not much use to work hard.
it's more practical to work smart. it's not as if i dun study for my exams or wadeva. i just wan to b able to study at a pace i'm comfortable with. i noe my limits n my capabilities. i dun care if u think i can do much better if i'm as hardworking as my sis. i think dat's crap. i'd just b a nerd buried in heaps of books. and anw, in case u havent noticed, i dun go out as often as she does, i dun spend as much money as she does, i seldom show u a black face either.
i wldnt say i'm a v helpful person. it's not dat i dun wan to help, but it's lyk the wadeva story abt giving a hungry person a fish everytime he's hungry, VS giving him a fishing rod n teaching him to fish. i dun mind lending a helping hand, but if u noe u'r going to nid my help on the same thing q often, den wld u
pls learn to do it urself? i can show u how n teach u to do it u noe?
i havent been in the best of moods dis days n no1 seems to notice. i dun nid u going arnd telling every1 wad's going on in my life either. do they nid to noe? wld they die if they din noe?
just shut up already.
random thoughts at 11:08:00 PM
